4/24/25 - Appreciation for 65% solitude in employment.
I had submitted an appliation for a transfer a few months back at my job. Almost 4 months later, it's all gravy, going to my job is way less of an issue now. My social meter has a low threshold... honestly, lower than most, making it difficult to complete tasks when my energy gets depleted. Interacting, as the social contract demands, was making it not only difficult to do my job but it also affected my life outside of my job too. With that pressure eased a couple times a week, it has already vastly improved my mood and my energy after work.
With these new areas, the new groups of coworkers don't know me, and I now have some control over the social situations. By being polite, but quiet and distant, that will be the expectation. The other coworker there is similar, so this behavior won't be compared to a high-energy, social individual as it was previously. In the previous area, that type of persona was expected because of the social routine established. This new area, a quiet and distant persona is what they're accostomed to. This works out well for me.
For people similar to me, these kinds of jobs are difficult to maintain while maintaining life outside of those jobs. Even this job has far less demands on the social aspect and it's still difficult for me personally. And, well, remote jobs that are well-paid are harder to obtain. The less people I have to interact with, the easier it is for me to have optimal productivity, in the job itself and in my own life. Is that ideal, no. But this is the way I am and this is how I have to deal with it.
Beacuse honestly, I yearn for a life where I'm far away, unreachable by society, by anybody at all, and only a select few I like I'll talk to and hangout with. That's the dream...