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Well the new layout is live. Yay. I made it for fun around the beginning of this month and ended up enjoying it so I kept going. There's still some leftover things I'd like to do but since I'm happy with the progress, I'll share it now. :P oh and btw I finally remembered what that tumblr account was from my last entry, Constella! It's awesome that she has kept the same blog layout for probably the last ten years XD man I'm old
So it's very clear who my favorite character is, there's many reasons too, but I'll share all of that when I get into making the web shrine. I think I'll try a full dedicated css layout for it rather than using the base I have for all of these pages. My best pal got inspired too and has made a fan page (/personal site sort of?) for Dorohedoro as well!! I'll add the button when he makes one lol.
What I kinda wanna write about instead is: anime. I know it seems like I might be an anime fan. Well, sort of. I do like it, but I have a laundry list of complaints about anime and the culture surrounding it. I don't watch or read any manga that have blatant fan service, sexualization and/or sexual harassment towards children and women or blatant misogyny. I really do not fucking care "how good the story is". So, what I'm willing to consume is a much shorter list, because all of that is rampant in way too many of them. That's why I enjoy Dorohedoro so much, there are well written women who aren't just narrowed down to their gender stereotypes and even though there is nudity, it's rather neutral.
I know that it's "not as bad" (still bad) as it used to be in the past but there's still far too much of it. Sexual harassment and mistreatment of women and children will never be funny and I will say it out loud lol. So that's why I've always been hesitant to say that I like anime to people that I don't know. Just doesn't feel good when other fans gloss over stuff like that.
It does sort of open the dialog of: well, what "is and isn't" allowed to be problematic in media? That's a whole other conversation, I don't wanna write about all of that lol. In the shortest take possible about it, the nuance matters, the way the story is told matters. Horrible things that happen in stories and evil, horrible characters should exist. But what I'm saying is in regard to anime specifically, which has a long history of sexual harassment being a punchline, sexualization of children and minors and just poorly written women because of the misogynistic culture in Japan. None of which is acceptable to me lol.
More than all of that, I wanna write about how much I love Nikaido u_u;;;;;;;; combat agitation of what can't be changed with love of what exists now that is good and well done >:D
It's summmmerrrrrrrrrrr. So happy. Well, my job position changed so, weirdly, I can sort of enjoy it more but also less? Idk. I don't like how the work days and days off are scheduled. I like everything else though. I don't have to talk to anybody, just do the job and leave. It's great. It's the best I could ask for. And the pay is alright and so are the benefits. Not a real epic win but, close enough? I guess. And the creatine capsules I've been trying out are surprisingly effective, before that, around 4 - 5 hours into my shift, dog tired, regardless of sleep or caffiene. Now I'm mostly energetic through most of the shift. Really just wanted to use it for muscle gain but this is a nice extra.
Since the depression has been on and off for the past few weeks, I decided to try and combat it by going back into a hobby I like: coding some good old html and css. In other words, I've been working on a new layout for (this) my blog little by little :D but when it will be done, TBD. I like how it's coming along so far. Rather than using javascript to view pages, I wanted to go back to the old way of making every individual page with links to them. With that in mind, I'm changing how each page would look to suit the theme.
...Actually, the theme isn't all too different, but it kinda is, lol. I like these colors but I'm adding in some blue too. The colors of earth are my favorites, my top favorite being the colors of sunrises and sunsets though. Yellows and oranges. Anyway, it's been fun, looking through other people's codes for inspo, here and elsewhere. Like, I was trying out a codepen code someone shared for an animated clouds background, it looks really cool!! It was made using pngs and css, it inspires me to see how creative people can get with the bare minimum. Reminds me of the days when it blew my mind seeing rain drops on a website or that one Tumblr theme back then that had a footer image that their posts would scroll behind. Thier blog name was some variation of Stella but I can't remember it anymore. It was kirby themed ^-^
I guess, I'm really looking for some kind of joy. I feel better but worse at the same time and the atrocities and the news never help anything. The little bits of good news peppered in between keeps me going, lol. And sometimes it does help to step away from it for a bit and watch videos of kittens being kittens instead. I feel okay today though. Think I'll have a fruit popsicle.
I took PTO for today to join in the economic blackout. Hopefully lots of people have as well, it's easy to not buy stuff for a day. We should try it for a week, or longer. But I know the systems at play don't allow that for many to just call out of work whenever, their paychecks are their security (mine too but I've been in a lucky position to save some). If only there could be massive quantities of communities to help people finanicially so we could just say fuck you to the ruling class by not working. If it were me with large quantities of money, I wouldn't have it for long lol, I'd give it away to help anyone and everyone. I think I would keep just enough to not worry about paying for living expenses.
In an ideal world though, nobody would need that. I think it is obtainable, regardless of what people say. Either way, since I have free time today, I'm here on my small corner of the internet for a little while, dusting off the cobwebs. In a lighter topic, I've re-read Dorohedoro for the second time and really took the time to appreciate the story and the art way more than when I read it the first time. After that, I've started on Dai Dark as well, which is just as good and funny lol. I enjoy Q Hayashida's imagination. It's so inspiring.
This week was nice, I got some wonderful bday wishes and gifts and went with my bestie to a rage room and we throttled the objects. >:) Really cathartic, can't wait to go again eventually. Nothing much else to report, I think I'm feeling hopeful still, more hopeful than the all devouring dread. Last year I went ham on reading books and listening to audiobooks, haven't really done much of that this year, aside from Dorohedoro. My to-read list is pretty stacked so, I ought to pick one or two up for my enjoyment. Or maybe finish ones I've started lol (looking at you, Metal of Heaven and House of Leaves).
Okay then. Let's get back to it. Don't buy anything today, donate to crisis relief instead for a good deed. ♥
Um, hehe. So we're four months into 2026, almost five now. My 2025 blog posts are archived and maybe someday I'll share them again but probably not. So hey, whaddup, it's been a long while. I could write about a lot of everything, because holy fucking shit, what a start to the year, everything is so fucked up!!! Idk what I'm supposed to do!!! My therapist tells me that I need to focus on making sure I'm all good before anything else, I'll agree for posterity's sake, but c'mon. The horrible state of geopolitics and my own country which is vastly contributing to how inhumane and fucked up everything is, understandbly, I'm having a HARD TIME.
Almost too much to even comment on. And at least here, I haven't made my stance all too clear, but in the shortest words possible: wealth shouldn't exist for a handful, say no to AI data centers, say no to expoitation, every person (ALL, yes ALL) deserve a peaceful life without their rights being infringed upon, bring on the solarpunk era, ect. Let's do a matriarchy I'm fr. I know, that's not much to go off of, I do think about these things very deeply and I act wherever I'm able to to contribute to the vision we all truly want; freedom and peace. Which means, fighting the fucking enemies every step of the way.
There's much more to this, naturally, I'm just, not in the mood to lay it all out in long-but-easy-to-digest terms, you'll just have to trust me on this one, okay? Some things really are that simple.
Aside from the big fat elepant that I have now addressed (and have petted) (elephants are cute and intelligent), well, what-ever about the webmaster of this blog? Oh, little old me, it's the same bullshit every day. I work against my will to pay for a semblance of peace and shelter. I'm doing my best, alright, that's all I got. I finally gave up using my evil tracking device-- I mean, my iPhone (which I got for free, I didn't say no to free shit back then) and upgraded to a more evil tracking device-- THE GOOGLE PIXEL!!!! Jk it has Graphene OS on it. Definitely think about it, if you're getting rid of your current hand-sized shit box. We value privacy and security aw yea.
Idk man. I wish I had more to say. I do, but I don't. It makes sense, in this world, where so much doesn't make any sense. So if you come across this page and maybe felt hopeless, I hope you feel a little less hopeless. Hope is always free. But so is taking actions, do what you can, even the little stuff will contribute. Always get worse before it gets better.
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